Lotus Flower

Lotus Flower
Awakening

6.04.2011

The Seed Burst Forth

The Seed has burst forth. 
The first rays of light shine down on the little seedling 
Gifting promise and life~ endless as the breeze.
Rooted with the earth 
Surrounded by the air 
Reaching for the stars 
This was the awakening that was promised. 
Today growth is one of strength and understanding of what is contained within the stems of life.
The leaves of nature move up and out reaching and expanding in Love.



My Personal Story


The process of growing from seed to seedling is complete. The awakening of my soul to a higher level started with a burst of light that literally cracked open at the base of my spine- the root chakra- and shot up through the central meridian for just a few quick seconds. Awakening in the physical can be painful and this moment was no exception. The soul awoke in the physical body and left me in pieces for days. The pain was strong. It was hot then ice cold. I could feel the ripples of this light slowly moving from the central point out into my legs, torso, and then arms and head. I used Reiki to heal the initial pain and shock. Then healthy doses of prayer and requests for Divine Grace for the integration. I quickly sought Alternative forms of Medicine to assist with the realignment of my back and pelvis. More came out of these visits which has healed me even deep in new areas that also needed assistance and healing. My first kundalini initiation was complete.

I was a new small seedling, I was vulnerable and delicate. I needed lots of water and fresh food. Lacking sunlight here in the Pacific Northwest I sought out foods to stimulate me in the ways my body was craving. I grew a stronger connection with my body as my soul filled itself in spaces it had never occupied before. As the physical body issues started to reach the new level of wholeness my body prepare for the next step upward.

I cleansed and detoxed the natural way my body requested and then received the next upgrade needed. I went through a molecular upgrade. At the core of every atom in my body I released the old patterns of eons of lifetimes. Lower vibrational energies that no longer could hold space in a body coming into its new form. This process appears on the outside to be an illness. A cold with a mind of its own. Initially my body told me 72 hours of release. I drank lots of water and stayed focus on the outcome and ignored the physical pain that was burning through me. This process was like the initial wave of light I felt at the awakening. The difference was it burned slowly at each phase of release. It would sit in different spots within and then move like a wave to another space that needed focus. I ran fevers, had chills, and felt exhausted while releasing all I could with all my heart. While sleeping on the 3rd night  I was feeling the lift of energy change within and I made a conscious choice to try and clear the block that has been lodged in my throat chakra my whole life. This healing process was more centralized in the throat and heart chakra areas affecting me physically in my throat and lungs. This release was different and more difficult as I was working on a deep seated karmic energy that wasn't willing to leave quietly. Four days later the pain lifted however I still choke up and feel the energy still attempting to hold on while the cellular level of my body try to dislodge and release. I will continue to work on my healing of this area.

The last of the healing within has been less resistant to change and more flowing of the light- these are the dreams and memories of all my lifetimes contained within. They come to me in the dream state most often although they have also been released in visions and strange memories that are triggered by outside experience in my daily life.

The connection and awakening of the third chakra has grown into a new awareness of food and digestion. I am not able to eat anything that my body doesn't want or crave. This meaning- my brain may want that yummy looking cupcake my daughters are having but my body does not. The disconnect- my programmed ego brain and my digestive system- is a  much needed change. It helps to guide me to what my nutritional needs may be at that moment. Needs that may change as my body continues to shift and grow.



The Flowering


The awakening of a soul in this new paradigm is not always for the faint of heart. It requires Faith and lot of Love for self and the process. I find myself in a new body that seems lighter (I haven't actually lost a pound) and more centered in the knowing. The next steps forward still remain in front of me hiding behind a fog of light. My focus still remains on clearing up any remaining loose ends that still need to be lifted up and out. This is the time for growing strong and understanding what it is that I am awakened to do in this cycle and all the cycles to follow.



We are the Divine Light. We are the Universe. We are LOVE.